Fuoco dal Cielo

I have been reading, and almost finished a book I found at the Pauline Book Store called ‘Fuoco dal Cielo’ (Fire of Heaven), written by a woman named Chiara Amirante, who is the founder of an organization/spirituality called ‘Nouvi Orizzonti’ (New Horizons). ( It was actually really funny how I came to have this book because I didn’t think I would find it, mostly because I didn’t know it’s name. BUT the sisters at the store were troopers and helped me, even though they practically moved around the whole store, merely because I asked politely…) This woman, who has suffered so greatly, but still manages to have this contagious joy and incredible love for Christ, is such an amazing inspiration, and in particular all that she does really feels close to my heart.

Since Santa Cecilia’s ‘No.’ earlier this week, I have really been praying about what to do next, pretty heavily….(Let’s just say that between your prayers and mine, God is probably like ‘Alright already! Geez!’) But also in the mean time, I have really been thinking, what COULD I do? I could finish my degree in music, but five years seems like it is definitely for me. I could get my degree in something else (Languages, Social work, etc.), but I also don’t feel like I am supposed to be doing that either. It’s not because I don’t love to learn. Knowledge, as my mom says, is something I have thirsted for all my life. But I can’t conceive just doing something, studying something, because everyone else is studying, because you have to have something to ‘back you up’. Not unless I felt it was directly routed to what I am supposed to do.

I was sitting one day, reading this book, when I came upon a line that says, ‘Il cuore di pietra che diventa un cuore di carne resta il miracolo dei miracoli.’ (In other words, a heart which was once of stone, and has converted, rests as being the miracle of miracles.) And I don’t know why, but I just started to cry and cry, like a baby! (My roommate was in the next bad reading about Vampires, and here I am being completely losing it!) ‘How TRUE is that?’, I thought. There is nothing more beautiful than a person whose heart has been truly changed, and even more so, what a blessing it is that you could possibly be a part of someone elses conversion. So I began to think, what if that’s just it? Maybe some are supposed to study become lawyers, doctors, teachers, etc. Maybe some are supposed to work in stores, fix your roads, and unclog your drains. Equally so, maybe some of us just feel so strongly that calling to help people change, that nothing else resounds in our hearts?

In any case, I feel as though I am on the RIGHT track.

I love you all. I.m.p.