O.k... SO ... The official results are in fact in and it is, as of now :), a 'No.' But as I have said, I am in the process of getting together with a teacher/administrator at Santa Cecilia, whom I have been in contact with for almost a year now. She has expressed wanting to have an appointment with me. I shall call her and see what happens and also try to speak to the director. And then if after that NOTHING happens, than I will know I have done all that I can. Certainly, in any situation, God's will be done because I am certainly open to listening.
This day and yesterday has been real emotional ride, because, as mentioned before, this is always a very difficult thing to deal with and just saddening in general. Però(but)...I can safely say this is nothing new to me, considering situations like this have definitely happened before and in the end, it has turned out to be, not necessarily, THE best, but FOR the best, the RIGHT thing, helping me learn more about myself and persevere. As far as I am concerned, I have had so many good things happen here in Rome and still very much believe I am supposed to be here for a while. These are just trying things that happen that teach meabout myself, as a person, my weaknesses, as difficult as they are to handle.This is certainly not, however, the worst thing that has happened, will happen, or the end of the world.
As a matter of fact, something pretty interesting happened to me on my way back from Santa Cecilia, after going to see the official results of the Italian exams. I went to mass at a church nearby Santa Cecilia, and then decided I would take a route I haven't taken before, just to see and explore, and LOW AND BEHOLD, guess what I found? I was walking, look up, and on the corner of the street I see a engraved plaque, on the side of a building which in 1591 was a Jesuit hospital (That was the year the plague struck Rome and the Jesuits opened a hopsital.), that stated that in 1591 Santo Luigi Gonzaga (St. Aloysius Gonzaga) died on the octave of Corpus Christi in this building, after having suffered with being sick himself for three months. Now, that might not seem significant to the average Joe, BUT for me St. Aloysius Gonzaga is extremely meaningful, considering that it was on his feast day (June 21) of 2007 that I had a profound experience at Old St. Joseph's, Philadelphia, PA (Also ironically Jesuit), which I feel has ultimately led me here to Rome. I don't believe in coincidences. :) and remembered this, which is something St. Aloysius Gonzaga lived by, 'He who loves God does not truly love Him if he is not in a constant and ardent desire to suffer for his sake.' Did I mention he is also the Patron Saint of the Youth? And that I have recently been informed about a group named 'Nouvi Orrizonti' who works specifically with battered youth, and was formed by a woman named Chiara Amirante, who was a student of Chiara Lubich, founder of the 'Focolare'?
Things are happening and who knows what will come from them. Maybe not what I am thinking might happen. But at the same time, nothing happens that coincidentally, and God works in VERY mysterious ways.
I love you all...and am praying, ESP to St. Aloysius Gonzaga... ;)
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